Tuesday, January 22, 2013

Walking Away!!

Look at my sweet girl waiting to go back for surgery!! I can't even tell you how much I LOVE this girl!!!

One year ago today I met that beautiful girl. Oh my she took my breath away!! I couldn't even believe she was right there in front of me. The little LOVE I had been head over heals in love with for two years!!! The angel I had been longing and aching to hold! I was in Heaven when the director said I could hold her that day. I knew as soon as I held her that I never wanted to let her go!! As a matter of fact everything in me said RUN, take her and RUN!! Oh my I didn't not want to leave her!! Obviously running wasn't an option but it was an overwhelming feeling. Instead, I had to turn my back and walk away!! Oh the PAIN was something I knew I would never forget.

Then I had to do the same thing today. The anesthesiologist went over all the serious risks with Lyla being under general anesthesia. Even though I knew all of this something about what she was saying STRESSED me right out. Then I had to do it again, just like last year, ignore the screaming in my head to RUN with her and turn my back on my sweet daughter and walk away.

I begged and pleaded with GOD last year to keep Lyla healthy until her family could come for her!! Never having a clue that we would be that family!! So GOD sure did come through on that one didn't He??? Well I have no doubt He will do the same today!!!

But I have to say, I HATE walking AWAY!!!!


  1. :-( hang in there Sweet Mama! praying!

  2. Resilient doesn't even begin to describe this little lady. Go Lyla!

  3. We are all waiting an update on sweet Lyla, hope she is resting.Carol