Walking Away!!

Look at my sweet girl waiting to go back for surgery!! I can't even tell you how much I LOVE this girl!!!



One year ago today I met that beautiful girl. Oh my she took my breath away!! I couldn't even believe she was right there in front of me. The little LOVE I had been head over heals in love with for two years!!! The angel I had been longing and aching to hold! I was in Heaven when the director said I could hold her that day. I knew as soon as I held her that I never wanted to let her go!! As a matter of fact everything in me said RUN, take her and RUN!! Oh my I didn't not want to leave her!! Obviously running wasn't an option but it was an overwhelming feeling. Instead, I had to turn my back and walk away!! Oh the PAIN was something I knew I would never forget.

Then I had to do the same thing today. The anesthesiologist went over all the serious risks with Lyla being under general anesthesia. Even though I knew all of this something about what she was saying STRESSED me right out. Then I had to do it again, just like last year, ignore the screaming in my head to RUN with her and turn my back on my sweet daughter and walk away.

I begged and pleaded with GOD last year to keep Lyla healthy until her family could come for her!! Never having a clue that we would be that family!! So GOD sure did come through on that one didn't He??? Well I have no doubt He will do the same today!!!

But I have to say, I HATE walking AWAY!!!!